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so chris bought me digital camera<3
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[06 Apr 2006|09:17pm] |
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i believe im going to buy chris an ipod nano for 199.
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[04 Apr 2006|06:47am] |
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spring break next week and i work 5 days, how nice. mom comes home tomorrow. of course i'll be working, nothing new. i'm so exhausted, i need sleep. i need to pass my math test today so i can pass for the year. sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet, today be over?
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[01 Apr 2006|08:22am] |
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i hate going a day without seeing christopher, as sickening as that sounds. I just feel so bad because we hardly see eachother anymore, and when we do we're both exhausted. Last night he came by after i got home from the hospital and all i did was sleep, i was beyond tired. I know he doesn't mind, but i just feel bad. And i know i shouldn't blow my friends off, because that's how i'll loose 'em. But i'd much rather spend time with Chris then go out and get trashed now. Today is a bad day. Plus i have to work a shift for someone 9-2:30. Can today just be over already?
♥
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| don't try to hide the mistakes i made this time. |
[31 Mar 2006|09:01pm] |
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mom's surgery went great today, she's been recovering in ICU [intensive care unit] all day, and we just got back from there actually. i got out at 10:30 to go see her, but she wasn't awake, and so we had to come back at 8. She looks so much better, you wouldn't believe. Her skin color has looks so much better since the heart is actually working correctly now. I couldn't help but cry. She's so out of it, and it reminded me so much of my Grandma. Atleast she knew who i was. She kept telling us she loved us, and she was real sad when we told her we couldn't sleep over. Only started crying when we had to say goodbye. And then she saw me crying and told me to cut it out, and she'd be home soon enough to take care of me. I miss my mommy.
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[30 Mar 2006|06:39am] |
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this week has been beyond rough. monday i find out my moms been sent to the hospital, so we rush there & maybe an hour later find out she's having heart failure, her lungs were filled with fluid. she's now having open heart surgery on friday, which worries me to the max. and what is really fucked up is last week an ambulance came and got her and took her to John Randolph, because all the other ambulances stations in all the other hospitals were closed. Well that night they sent her home with Pneumonia, which she found out yesterday she didn't even have. That night she was at the hospital the Doctor knew she was having heart faliure, even wrote it on her chart, but told her she had pneumonia and would just be put on medications. so i'm pretty sure we're going to sue, which is good because that doctor should not be in practice.
...on a good note! boyfriend gets his braces off today, i've lost 3.5 lbs since my diet started on monday, and tonight is lauras 18th birthday dinner. Oh and i'm going to see mdukes after school<3
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[23 Mar 2006|07:51pm] |
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i have never felt so fat in my entire life. hating vegetables and fruits isn't helping me out so much either. i need to stop eating out so much with chris, and just stop eating so much in general. it's killer when you go to try on your prom dress that fit you perfectly a couple months earlier & now it's skin tight. i feel so gross now, but my attempt is to loose atleast 15 lbs before may 06, 2006. the day of prom, it's going to be hard, hard to push myself to the gym, but i can't feel so disgusting anymore. fuck gaining weight. here's some pictures♥
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| christopher john peck. |
[14 Mar 2006|09:25pm] |
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before when i thought i was inlove, i was clearly wrong. i've never felt like this, and yes i know i've said that before, but i think i was so inlove with the idea of being "inlove", so i told myself i was, but really i was wrong. This is it, i'm thinking to myself, this is love. I've never been treated like a princess everyday of my life, but he gives me that satisfaction. Never has he made me cry, or raised his voice at me in such anger. You're my life Christopher, please don't break my heart, ever, promise?
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